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Name: Elly
Birthday: 10/16/1977
Gender: Female
Interests: I've had an interest in pirates and the caribbean BEFORE the movie. Mythology and egypt. Physics. Astronomy. Movies. Music. Cars. Bikes. Mechanics. Art. oh yes...and FOOD! FOOD FOOD FOOD FOOD.
Expertise: Causing trouble.Living through hell.Cake. mm. Cake.
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Member Since:
5/13/2004
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| Another phase..Ian has entered a stage where he cannot go to sleep.
for the past couple of days its been impossible for him. He WANTS to, he yawn, rub his eyes, nod off in your arms, but 30 min later. BAM eyes wide awake.
I tried feeding, rocking, CAR RIDE, everything that normally worked, but to no avail. he isn't crying, or hungry, he just sits there and moves his hands and feet, and opens his eyes wide to stare at you.
currently he has been up since 330am, and not one bit of sleep. its now 130pm...that meas i also go with only 30min-1hr of sleep at a time....
so my fellow mothers...come across this problem? ideas/suggestions or insight?
GRATEFULLLLLLLLLL
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| I feel terribleI am having some feelings about motherhood that I don't know if i am supposed to have. I love my son so much, but I often feel very happy to have hubby's mom take him for the night or for hours on end. and then i feel guilty for not wanting him there. and i get mad at him for having gas, but i am not really mad at him, i am frustrated cuz i don't know how to help him. I don't feel like a good mom, i cry a lot, and i feel very depressed. I especially cry when trying to feed him because since i have had him breastfeeding has been nothing but trouble. i dont want to give up, i try so hard to make sure this is what he has. But my nipples are constantly sore and chapped and it looks like he has a proper latch, but he couldnt if i am sore and chapped. and he often begs for the breast, and eagerly roots for the nipple, but when he gets on he starts pushing away and fighting and pulling my nipple around like its taffy! i get so sore, and frustrated, and then he pushes off the boob, only to cry because he is still hungry!!! i burp him a lot, and he burps. he farts. he expells the gas but still writhes like he is in pain. and tot op it all off, he vomits ALOT. little ones, big ones. midwife says not to worry, but i cant help worrying.
aah, i feel so bad, like a total failure because my patience is nil, i cant calm him down, i have no idea how to!!
i am at a loss.
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| I'll Be Back.......I had Ian Felix on June 4th at 1:30pm.
So now i need to recover, develop some family time, and all that jazz so i shall not be writing in here for awhile. But i will be reading!
love you guys!
xo
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| I am really fucking tired.I weigh 191lbs.
I feel very very large, I can barely walk because my frame was not meant to support this kind of weight, and i feel depressed because i weighed 129 before i was preggo and i want to wear all my old clothes.
It is 6:07am. I CANT SLEEP. Like at all. I can tell you I saw every hour pass last night. 1am, 2am, 3am etc. All accompanied by either bathroom trips or extreme intense pain in the hips.
I cried out of sheer frustration because all I want is an hour of comfortable sleep. I cant sit because my tailbone hurts, I cant stand because my thighs hurt, and I can't stop complaining because I feel like I need to justify my spontaneous bouts of anger and tears.
good thing I have this blog to vent my frustrations.
p.s.
Men have it way too easy.
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| Le SighInduction scheduled for June 10th....lets hope i have a spontaneous labour before that!!!
*fingers crossed!*
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